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Wednesday, October 14, 2009

when you drop a glass or a plate to the ground,
it makes a loud crashing sound.
when a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall it makes a noise.
but as for your heart, when that breaks, its completely silent.
you would think as its so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world, or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell.
but its silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.

if there is a noise, its internal. it screams and no one can hear it but you. it screams so loud your ears ring and your head aches. it trashes around in your chest like a great white shark caught in the sea : it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken.
thats what it looks and what it sounds like, a trashing, panicking, trapped great big beast, roaring like a prisoner to its own emotions.
but thats the thing about love-no one is untouchable.
its as wild as that, as raw as an open flesh wound exposed to salty sea water, but when it actually breaks, its silent.
youre just screaming on the inside and no one can hear it

think,,,

it was time to stop walking with my head in the clouds and instead, keep my feet on the harder soil of the ground level we should always have been rooted to.

ill walk in the rain so that no one can see me crying,,,,